Today when I heard the announcement of General Conference I thought of some thing I have been pondering lately. Mainly "am I ready now to do the Lord's errand?" Here was the opportunity, right in front of me. The Savior was knocking and I need only to let Him in. I have intended on serving since last April and was preparing myself to have to wait, planning on classes for next semester and working on my relationship with my Savior and studying Preach My Gospel (the manual for missionaries when they serve). Yet suddenly I can go now. I fulfill the deepest desire of my heart to go out and bring souls unto Christ. to share the joy that the Gospel brings me with those that the Lord calls me to serve. It is quiet a burden but it is one that I am more than willing to bear. Though I don't feel fully capable and fully prepared the Lord qualifies those that He calls and that are willing to go to work.
I am so grateful for the influence of the Holy Ghost, that I have been guided in my preparation. I feel like in many ways all that I have experienced in my life up to this point has been leading up to the 18 months I will spend as a full time missionary for Him. The thought of serving God 24/7 with no outside distractions brings me a great deal of joy and excitement. I can think of no better way to come to know my Savior than to labor in His vineyard and lead His sheep who are wandering to the living water that He can provide.
The scripture story that sticks out in my head at the moment is the story of Peter when he walks upon the water to Christ. I think everyone spends so much time pointing out that Peter got distracted by His fear and stumbled. Yet in the verse before all this occurs we read "he [Peter] walked on the water to go to Jesus" (Matt. 14:29). It was only when He took the eyes off of the Lord that he erred. I think this is one of the things that makes Peter, as a character of the New Testament so endearing. He has faults. He teaches us that even great leaders require a period of growth. No matter where we are in the kingdom of God we will have doubts, and because of this we need to always really on our Savior. That is my message to all of you tonight. Rely on Him. Remember that even when Peter stumbled and fear He was lost He cried out to the Lord and "immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand and caught Him." (Matt 14:31)
I personally testify that Christ will never turn His back on us. He will never leave or forsake us. At times we may feel like we are drowning and cry out in the storms of our tribulation as Peter did "Lord save me" He will answer. Of this I know. I am grateful for this opportunity both to serve and to share my thoughts with all of you. Our Redeemer lives, hearken unto Him. The Book of Mormon is the word of God, read it. He is offering you the truth, ask for it. May God bless you my dear readers, until you read again.